I Am Here — The Essay
“I Am Here!” This is more than a declaration. It is a revelation. I love being in this body, separate and part of something greater. I am part of something whole. The finite existence of life is a true gift. I feel free – atop of the world. I am blessed with the beauty of the empty canvas and the blank page. I have the opportunity to paint my world any color I want and to create the story of my life. All I have to do is draw that first fragile line or write the first intentional words of a poem and simply dream my existence.
My experience in the world seems almost full circle. I came here hungry for wisdom. It has taken me a lifetime to learn what has always been mine. My old worlds dissolve more quickly now leaving me without reference points in the past to hold onto. Almost everything I have ever believed has disappeared. What I do believe is more about being alive than anything else. No other assessment of me matters. I stand undiminished to the world in full sail.
With little or no interference from me, my life lives itself. I am and will be until my death merely the vehicle through which it lives. I enjoy all the things I do and have no regrets for the things I’ve done. I love being alive. I stretch the limits of and totally inhabit this body. In a worldly and spiritual sense I push the limits of both mind and heart. I traveled the planet looking for home and have found many along the way.
Now I continue this unmapped adventure into my life from this place I call “here.”
I like being “here” where I can watch each day create its perfect self. This space feels safe for me. I am observing without being observed. I am doing what a creator does.
What have I learned that I can give? You hold it in your hands. I read, I write, I think, and I dream. These four acts fill much of my life. They are the only things I have done for myself all of my life without exhaustion. I read, I write, I think, and I dream with wholeheartedness.
This is the kairos, a propitious moment, an opportunity for the creative expression of my existence in this world.