​I Am Here! – The Poem

FCF38573-2929-4C13-B491-12CD9E788FD0 There is one other thing to know…when you have expressed yourself to the fullest, then and only then will it dawn upon you that everything has already been expressed, not in words alone but in deed, and that all you need really do is say Amen! — Henry Miller

I watched as you swirled through space
a molten fragment of a star
and took your place third from the sun.
While you were still an infant wrapped in the
heat of your own creation,
I bathed in your red hot lava flows
pushed upward from your heart’s core.
Using your clouds of steam for stepping stones,
I climbed into your heavens and placed the stars
into the sky to navigate your journey through existence.
From your boiling seas, I watched you transform
from amoeba to fish and then crawl onto the land.
I forced the wind through your gills
and breathed your first breath into your lungs.
I rode on the backs of mastodons and led them
from the icy grotto of their death.
I watched as a proud mother your first erect steps.
When you stumbled, I gave you courage.
When you fell, I gave you hope.
And when you left this world, I gave you wonder.

I am the air you breathe,
the water you drink,
the vegetation which feeds your body.
I am the voice which speaks to you in whispers
and consoles you in your sleep.
I am the doorkeeper of your dreams
and the guardian of your fears.
I am the blood flowing in your veins
and every thought your mind interprets.
I am the love you feel when you don’t know why.
The tears you shed for both sorrow and joy.
I am life itself, and I am everywhere.
I am here, (mind) I am here, (body) I am here (soul).

Amen.

An Interview With Myself Part I

399350FA-0A88-4CFC-8FC9-8460EEC58FB9Me: Let’s begin. I have been looking forward to this interview for a long time. We have been on the planet now for seventy years and so in the words of Mary Oliver – “Tell me what it is you plan to do with your one wild and precious life.”

I: I no longer make plans, except for airline reservations. This moment is truly all that matters.  I know we live in a world of memories and dreams which place us in the past or in the future, but time is an illusion. Anyhow, the plans we made for our life never seemed to work out the way we planned. Did they?

Me: Our plans may not have worked out but our life certainly has. Wouldn’t you say? I mean, look at us. We’re retired, living in Fiji, and our book is published.

I: Yes, our life has worked out as you put it but very little from anything we planned. It worked because we learned to flow with life more than to fight it.

Me: When do you think that happened for us?

I: I would say around the time we left the corporate world and started to simplify our life a bit.

Me: Boy that was a rough time. We gave up so much.

I: We gave up a lot of stuff, the role play we were in, and the social constraints to which we were enslaved.

Me: What do you mean by constraints? We were living it up big time in those days and eating high on the hog.

I: The constraints were defined by the life we were living. We were not free. We were in a maze of conformity, trying to fit in like everyone else. We even wore suits with white shirts and ties something we said in college we would never do.

Me: Yea, we were riding blind in those corporate days. We were loving and living the life everyone expected of us but we were a baby stumbling in the dark and trying to hide that fact from the world. We played “the role” well.

I: We were in fact trying to be normal, something at which we never succeeded.

Me: Thank you for that. I remember Maya Angelou’s words, “If you are always trying to be normal, you will never know how amazing you can be.”

I: That is true.

Me: Okay, let’s get back to the interview. I think you would agree that dreams have played an important role in our one precious life.

I: Yes, they have.

Me: What dream do you believe has had the most impact on our life and why?

I: That would be the Creation Dream. It was a dream perched on the boundary between the etherial and the physical realms. It is how we came together. We had it three times in our late forties. The exact same dream.

Me: I was hoping you would pick that one. I still have some uncertainty about its ethereal and physical meanings.

I: I think that is why we had the dream three times over a three year span of time. It was significant. It was suppose to be remembered.

Me: Okay, begin.                                                                           To Be Continued…