There is one other thing to know…when you have expressed yourself to the fullest, then and only then will it dawn upon you that everything has already been expressed, not in words alone but in deed, and that all you need really do is say Amen! — Henry Miller
I watched as you swirled through space
a molten fragment of a star
and took your place third from the sun.
While you were still an infant wrapped in the
heat of your own creation,
I bathed in your red hot lava flows
pushed upward from your heart’s core.
Using your clouds of steam for stepping stones,
I climbed into your heavens and placed the stars
into the sky to navigate your journey through existence.
From your boiling seas, I watched you transform
from amoeba to fish and then crawl onto the land.
I forced the wind through your gills
and breathed your first breath into your lungs.
I rode on the backs of mastodons and led them
from the icy grotto of their death.
I watched as a proud mother your first erect steps.
When you stumbled, I gave you courage.
When you fell, I gave you hope.
And when you left this world, I gave you wonder.
I am the air you breathe,
the water you drink,
the vegetation which feeds your body.
I am the voice which speaks to you in whispers
and consoles you in your sleep.
I am the doorkeeper of your dreams
and the guardian of your fears.
I am the blood flowing in your veins
and every thought your mind interprets.
I am the love you feel when you don’t know why.
The tears you shed for both sorrow and joy.
I am life itself, and I am everywhere.
I am here, (mind) I am here, (body) I am here (soul).
The greatest miracle is the discovery that all is miraculous. And the nature of the miraculous is utter simplicity. …The ground for any kind of growth and cultivation is prepared by lying fallow. — Henry Miller
I spent many hours in the Meditation Hall during the two years I lived and worked at Esalen Institute in Big Sur, California. During those early, chilly morning hours I would sit and reduce my breathing and pulse to keep time with the crashing of the ocean waves behind me. Life was/is so simple. I didn’t know what was going on in the rest of the world and it didn’t really matter. It was easy living my life and it felt as if I had all the time in the world to myself.
Following my departure from Esalen, I found it more difficult to find that same inner peace and solitude in the world. Relationships, work, and merely having to interact with more of the world took a toll on my solitude. It no longer just occurs. I have to schedule it around the lives of those with whom I work and live. When I did have moments of solitude, it was difficult to settle into that space of just “being.” Being open to all of life without judgment and accepting of “what is” without passing it through the filters of my brain.
Today the fish in the pond were totally still and appeared to be moving at the same time. Their stillness reminded me to slow down, to “be still and dance.” Amazingly enough I found that space of quiet, calm, and solitude instantly. There was no ocean, no meditation hall, but I was here in the solitude of my own body. I was a three dimensional being living in multiple dimensions. This is what each of us is. This is what life is. You just have to lie fallow every once and a while and prepare for sowing.
Dormant but still dancing.